Thursday, 22 March 2012
After writing my last post - Woefully un-inspired - I sat down to think about why I could have been feeling that way. What had changed in my psyche , that was leaving me so dull. I am not unhappy, I am bordering on content but I am not quite there yet. Everything is fine, I am working and earning a living and my home situation is pretty stable and my social life is as active as ever. But something is missing...
It's not love, I am still in that place were, its ranking very low on my list of life priorities. I have dated people in the last few months and those dates have satisfied a need. Usually sex or company. No, the lack of romance in my life is not the thing that seems to be missing.
I could be wrong here, lord knows I have changed my mind and changed it again, many times but the thing I think I am missing, is plans. Goals.
Last year, I had started work in a very different field, I was taking extra classes and being educated in something I previously had no experience in. I also had plans to visit some new cities, I went to London, Amsterdam, Birmingham and Blackpool, I was doing many different things. I know I wasn't feeling like this.
Last night, I thought about my lack of plans for the year, I am not very career orientated, so don't be surprised by the lack of plans in that area. This May a large group of my friends will be going to Gran Canaria, the Canary Islands of the coast of Spain for a week. I really want to go and although I haven't paid for it and it looks like I won't be able to afford it but In my head, I will be going. I am not sure how just yet.
It would only be my second package holiday to a warmer sunnier climate, after my amazing trip to Ibiza in the Summer 2010. I don't want to miss out on trip that might even be half as awesome as that trip to Ibiza. As I said, I hope to be there, I just don't know how yet.
Apart from the trip, I have made plans that eventually I will move house. I have been living here, since November 2010, I have lived with a few different people, 12 people in fact. The only mainstay apart from myself, has been my housemate Tom. So, we have decided that before the Summer kicks in, we will be in a new place. This time it will be a nice 2 bed, in a better part of Manchester. We have even sent some emails out to arrange some viewings.
Before the year is out, I want to have had my heartbroken, get a couple of new tattoo's, see another country - well as many new countries as possible, I want to have something to look back on 2012 and say THAT IS WHAT I DID! I need it to be more than the year I got arrested!