I am not working at the moment and so far I have been out of work for almost 3 months, the longest amount of time I have been unemployed since I started working. So my days right now, are very long. My sleeping schedule has been completely disrupted, waking up late in the day and staying up well into the wee hours. This pattern can be somewhat depressing, the other day I managed to sleep in until almost 4pm in the afternoon. When you wake up at that time of the day, it feels like your soul have been hollowed out.
For the most part I have managed to remain optimistic but now I have college to look forward too, I have to weigh up some options. If I go back to work, it means I will lose entitlement to some grants which would help me support myself through the next couple of years of education. If I don't go back to work until I start, well that seems like 6 months of having nothing to do, which will drive me crazy.
I was discussing this with my brother the other day, and I have resigned myself to the fact that there are not many part time jobs out there, that pay well, so I will probably have to explore other options like fast food or retail. Ideally, when college starts I would like to move closure to the campus and out of my Mothers house, just to get back some of the independence I had when I lived away from home.
But even those type of jobs aren't knocking down my door begging me to start and I am in a position now, where I have spent the last couple of months living on nothing much and I am starting to getting frustrated, its be demotivating. Luckily for me the weather has been awful for months, so social occasions apart from the couple of nights out have not been very regular.
Apart from the excursions to see my friends and to go buy second hand books, I have been sat at home, reading, cruising the internet and EATING!. I have done so much eating and unfortunately have put on the weight I managed to lose late last year. I lost my motivation around Christmas time, throwing my diet out the window in air of celebration and I guess I am still kind of celebrating. Well, Monday is a new day and I have decided that if I don't have a job to keep me busy, then I will have to do stuff during the day, in the spirit of being out of the house for eight hours a day, even if that means just hanging out in a library all day, or window shopping or whatever.
After the disaster of 2012, I don't the first half of 2013 to be boring.